Two Days
It’s warm again today and I’m sitting on a contemporary style bench that curves halfway around the park, although it’s not a park so much as a plaza. The issues on my mind are crushing me and yet that balance is still there. I always find a balance. My heart is broken and healed every day, it’s unbelievable.
Today it is cold again, the warm weather was a blip. Again I woke up feeling horrified and sore. I dreamt that I was drowning in a sensory deprivation tank. What’s wrong? I latch on to the wrong things and drive myself crazy. I messed up yesterday and feel ashamed. I thought about hurting myself but I’m beyond that sort of thing. The people I love are killing themselves with drugs and alcohol. I pray for forgiveness.